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Post by bristol alexandar. on Jun 13, 2010 19:51:05 GMT -8
briar was still almost moving in a haze, like she couldn't believe what had just happened and how quickly it all really had happened but she also wasn't able to calm down enough to even begin to try and process it. she could still feel his hands all over her, his lips pressed to hers and the stinging in her lip made it no better. she was dizzy from the blood and just from the overall weight of what could've just happened. she'd gotten some odd looks from people as she'd shoved through the tight packed bodies to get outside, but no one had paid her any more attention the to yell at her for spilling their drinks or stepping on a foot. when she'd gotten outside the cold air helped cool her heated cheeks and made the tracks of her tears sting. she didn't know when or how the night had gotten so out of hand, all she knew was she hadn't wanted to come to this dumb party anyways, but leah had quite literally forced her. she had put distance between herself and the party now, she knew she had to put as much distance between her and the party as she could or at least get where she was going to feel like she was safe. which your obvious choice would be home but she didn't want to face her brother, didn't want him to know what had happened, leah was still at the party and the last thing she wanted to be was alone in leah's room waiting for her to come home drunk. the last thing she wanted was to be alone period. she was trying to run through her tears and she was thankful tjhat the gods were deciding to show some kind of mercy and give her a little bit of time with some semblance of grace, she was shocked at the speed she'd had but then again there was a lot of built up fear and adrenaline in her, it was fight or flight, since she'd already fought cooper off of her now it was time to run. of course her glory couldn't last long and as her hair whipped behind and her tears felt like they were freezing against her cheeks in the slight chill she'd finally tripped over her feet, though at least it was in to grass, she didn't try to get back up for a moment, staying on her knees and trying to fix her breathing as her head spun a little. she looked over her shoulder satisfied that she'd gotten enough distance between herself she tried wiping away more of the tears she never shed anymore. though it didn't seem to help at all, it was all the tears she hadn't shed since she'd moved here had just built up waiting for the perfect moment to all cut loose and make her feel lime an idiot. though she had a reason to be crying, it wasn't like she had some random emotion breakdown no matter how much it might have seemed like it sitting on someone's front lawn nearly sobbing and definitely hyperventilating. she'd finally gotten up on her legs which weren't used to all the running and burned a little, but it was better then the ache in her bruised wrists and the headache her crying and the forced he'd pulled her hair with had caused. she felt stupid and silly with all the tears sliding down her cheeks, but she'd been so close to... god, she couldn't even think it.
she wrapped her arms around herself taking the next left, the opposite turn she'd need to take to her house, but she'd already decided she wasn't going home. it's probably where she should've gone, to tell her dad, to tell blaine, finally have something be done about cooper, but she was going to tav's. she didn't know he was the first person she wanted to be with when he was probably the last person she wanted to know about what just happened, there was a good chance she probably shouldn't have even showed up, why did he want to deal with her drama, but it really did feel like it was the only place she was going to be tonight and feel alright. she didn't feel like analyzing the emotions behind that, she probably wouldn't have liked her conclusion anyway, but here she was wiping at her tears as she knocked on the front door praying to god ise or his aunt didn't answer as she tried to pull herself even the least bit together, she pulled her sore bottom lip in to her mouth, glad to have discovered halfway here stopping to look in the side mirror of a parked car, it hadn't been that bad that most of the blood had belonged to cooper's and that her lip wasn't as swollen as it felt. she drew a hand through her hair getting a little anxious as no one came to the door, before she jumped a little as she finally heard the knob rattle, she let out a small sigh of relief as he did answer the door, "i'm sorry," she said immediately, "i would've called but i left my phone and i couldn't stay there with him and i just- i couldn't think of anywhere else to go, i didn't want to be anywhere but- i'm just, i'm sorry...." she finally cut off her rambling, shaking her head a little before she tried to steady her breathing.
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Post by octavius berringer on Jun 15, 2010 4:43:46 GMT -8
- - he’d had every intention of going to the party tonight, even when he’d come home nursing a whole batch of new injuries, and a whole lot of aches and pains in muscles he didn’t even know he had, he’d still been planning to go, because he’d said he would, or kind of, and well… to be honest, he just wanted to see briar, though kaileah kicking some skinny bitches ass was a definite draw too, he was sure it would be thoroughly entertaining. It was really rather inconvenient timing though that it was today, of all days, who threw a party on a thursday anyway really. Halfway through getting dressed he was distracted by the tv, where his uncle was trying to catch a little of the world cup while he was waiting for the other half to finish getting ready, they had some business dinner to go to, one that thankfully he hadn’t been roped into attending as well. momentarily forgetting the bruises he threw himself down on the couch, groaning a little as the controller landon left on there earlier caught him in the ribs, “rough game? ” his uncle inquired, his eyes still glued to the screen, “you could say that..” he said, chuckling briefly, before pulling a face at the stab of pain it elicited, yeah… he definitely hadnt missed this part, “three zero? ouch” he said, glancing up at the score, “ bloody Nazi’s ” his uncle murmured shaking his head, “you were going for the aussies?” he asked, raising a brow, his uncle just shrugged, glancing across at the stairs and then standing to meet his aunt who’d just appeared, “ be good…” he teased, smiling resignedly and moving towards the front door, holding it open as the rest of them shuffled out the door to the car. Yawning he reached for the remote for the air con and switched on the heater, before getting up slowly and going into the kitchen in search of food, grabbing a couple of beers and some chips he returned to the living room, figuring he’d watch the rest of the game and then finish getting ready.
- -he must have fallen asleep, because next thing he knew, someone was knocking at the door, waking him up, for a moment he laid there, ignoring it, until he remembered that everyone else had gone out. gingerly, he pushed himself off the couch, muttering a half articulated “ coming..” and praying it wasn’t a jehovas witness, or worse, one of his aunts uppity friends, who’d definitely raise their perfectly plucked eyebrows at his disheveled not to mention half clothed state and make sure to bring it up with her next time they went to lunch, which he’d no doubt get an earful about, it was about time he moved out really, it was just pure laziness that had stopped him so far, getting his own place would mean actually having to do shit for himself for once, like cooking, and cleaning, and washing, and it was all too much work. Catching a look out the outside he was a little surprised to see it was already dark out, he didn’t think he’d slept that long. Reaching the door he pulled it open, a smile stretching briefly across his lips at who was standing there, until he got a proper look at her, distracted he only caught half what she was saying, “huh?” was all he managed to reply with, wondering absently what the hell she was apologizing for, none of this made sense, least of all that she looked as though she’d recently been crying, “you okay?” yeah, he could have slapped himself right then, stupid question, of course she wasn’t okay, and he kind of really wanted to know why, but that could wait, there were more pressing matters, like her still being on the front step in only shorts and a pretty flimsy looking cardigan, “come inside, you must be freezing..” he urged, stepping back out of the way waiting for her to step through before closing it behind them, concern slipped into his expression as, under the better lighting, he could see for certain tear stained cheeks, a slightly swollen lip, “bri…” he began, frowning, “whats going on? What happened?”
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Post by bristol alexandar. on Jun 15, 2010 20:38:33 GMT -8
she needed to calm down, seriously just take a moment and breath, which was harder when you're mind was going practically 500 miles an hour, bursting into a ramble like that wasn't the greatest idea. she saw the confusion in his face, the concern slipping in there as her appearance really registered with him. any other time, or really any other person, and she probably would've given a bitter laugh at the question and come back with some kind of smart ass remark. she didn't answer now because she wasn't sure, yeah, she was okay in the sense that nothing happened when compared to what almost happened, but she wasn't okay because of what had happened, he'd spoken again and she nodded to his words, stepping past him and into the house. she turned to face him pulling her cardigan tighter around her as she crossed her arm over her stomach, flinching a little as it hurt her wrists, "i went to that stupid party..." she told him, dropping her gaze from his, "i didn't even know he was here, he moved to back to new york last year!" she stopped shaking her head, yeah, because that made so much sense to him, he had no clue who she was talking about, which was only her fault, she'd made a point to keep her past with cooper separate from her friends now. not only was he just a total jerk off, but what he did was a humiliating experience she didn't ever care to revisit. she took another breath, finally bringing her gaze up from the floor, "i... i uh, i was getting ready to leave, leah was off with some of her other friends, i didn't want to be there anyways and i stayed for her fight so i was just gonna go, i went to get my stuff and... " she stopped, gathering her words as her mind tried to replay what had happened, "i went to get my stuff, i was by myself and then... out of nowhere, there's cooper... " she could feel the stinging begin in her eyes again and she turned her face away so she could blink the tears that were trying to form away, "and i tried pushing him away..." she felt the nausea in her stomach again and she lowered her gaze to her hands twisting the ring around her finger, even though the skin around it was sore from when cooper had squeezed her hands so tightly, "he pushed me into a dresser, and he kissed me and then..." it was like she could feel his hand snaking under her shirt again, his fingers dipping under her bra, she shook her head, trying to keep her thoughts in order, "i just, it happened so fast, i couldn't get away from him..." the residual fear still clawing at her stomach, she didn't even care that the tears had finally broken through, they weren't as intense as they'd been earlier and for that she was thankful but the fact she didn't ever cry made it embarrassing enough, "i mean i finally got to knee him, but he wouldn't have stopped..." he may have been hesitating a little, but he really wouldn't have stopped, it was almost exactly like what had happened with kayla, "i'm sorry, i probably shouldn't have come but i'm just really freaked out by it all, i didn't know what to do. and i know it could of been worse, but i'm still freaking out like an idiot." she wipes at her tears again, trying to steady her breath, before she apologized again, "i shouldn't have come here like this and involved you..."
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Post by octavius berringer on Jul 1, 2010 5:58:33 GMT -8
- - This was all just so… unexpected. He might not have known her as long as everyone else, but this was certainly not a side of her he’d seen coming, at all. Still only half awake, his confusion was only heightened at her next words, and he searched his still sleep adled brain for guy friends she might have mentioned in previous conversations that had moved to new york last year, but he drew a complete blank. “ cooper? ” he murmured softly, frowning, more to himself, recalling the brief encounter at the bonfire, and with that a sick feeling forming in his stomach, it was amazing how quickly it all clicked together in his mind with the one important piece to the equation. The creeper vibe he’d gotten from the guy, and her, turning up on his doorstep, on the verge of tears? He knew exactly where she was heading before the words came out of her mouth, but he didn’t interrupt, or just assume, but he figured it had to take something pretty horrible to elicit this sort of reaction. He watched the tears start to run down her face, and he wanted to reach out and brush them away, but he felt frozen in place, suddenly intensely angry and completely horrified all at once, he really didn’t want to hear this, didn’t want to think about cooper, didn’t want to think about him being near her, let alone touching her or kissing her, especially when he done so without her consent. her next words seemed to break him out of the trance, enough to breathe again at least, to blink, to feel a brief wave of relief that he’d only got as far as kissing, not that it all that much better, or that she would feel any less violated, he breathed in slowly, searching for the right words, it wasn’t really a situation he’d dealt with before, he felt a little out of his depth.. or a lot. “ you’ve got nothing to be sorry for bri, I’m glad you told me, I want to be the one you can tell these things to..” he hesitated then, not knowing whether hugging her or touching her right now would be comforting, or whether it would just remind her of what had happened, because he definitely didn’t want to do that, so he settled instead for taking her hand gently, letting his thumb run lightly across the back of her hand, “ ..you think he’s still at the party?” he asked after a moment, his gaze moving from her face to the door, his jaw clenching in anger, turning back to her his expression softened, seeing the objection clearly on her face, and he gave her a reassuring smile, the sensible part of his mind knew that hunting the guy down right now was stupid and completely unnecessary, not to mention unfair since he’d probably be totally trashed, but he didn’t want to listen to that right now, because right now he kind of just wanted to punch the guys face in, “you’ll be alright here for a bit, wont you? Ise should be back soon.. ” he said, turning back towards his room to quickly throw on a shirt and jacket.
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Post by bristol alexandar. on Jul 2, 2010 23:51:45 GMT -8
"no, i shouldn't be dumping this..." she paused for the right word, she wasn't sure there was a word strong enough to suit it. the way cooper had messed with her in the library had been more of a head trip for him then anything, trying to kiss her, he knew how she'd react to that, accounted for it, it hadn't been about getting anything from her then just to see her squirm. tonight... tonight was about the power, about showing her something. "...fuckery on you" she finally supplied, she hardly knew how to deal with it, how was he supposed to navigate it? what had she expected coming here? the more she considered it, coming here, telling him what happened... it probably wasn't the best idea, she knew what his first steps would be, it's not like she wouldn't mind seeing cooper get his ass kicked. certainly she'd prefer to be the one doing it, but seeing him get messed up by the hand of tav would be just as satisfying. she looked down as his hand touched hers, reminding her why she'd come here, really. safety. she felt safe with him, she trusted him. unthinkingly, she nodded to his question, unless someone stumbled upon him he was going to be there in that room for a long time, she hadn't done much in comparison to what she was capable of, fear had crippled her too much but she'd still had a lot of strength behind her knee. a sick part of her was kind of hoping that she'd done permanent damage to him. being so worked up had made her slow in more then just reacting to defend herself, because it should've clicked immediately why he was asking, the same reason she'd been asking if leah had come to her saying some guy had tried to force himself on her, so she could find him and beat the shit out of him. the haze still didn't quite lift until he'd pulled his hand from ears and turned to walk away from her with his words, "no," she wouldn't be okay alone, even with no chance of cooper coming here, she didn't want to be alone and she especially didn't want tav doing something stupid. "she'll tell ezekiel." she called after him finally fully breaking from her trance, which was really about her last concern but even right now she still had a thing about admitting that she just didn't want him to leave her. she followed after him, "look, please, don't... i don't..." she stuttered before she finally just reached out for his arm, tugging him to a stop, "please, just don't leave me." it sounded every bit as pathetic as she'd been worried about and as she looked up into his eyes she could only imagine that she must have looked just as pathetic, crying was one thing, but this? begging someone to stay with you? yeah, that was a level of pathetic-ness she'd never wanted to reach. "please... i just need you right now, okay?" she admitted, ignoring the deep-seated almost ridiculously independent part of her that more often then not kept her from ever deigning to rely on another person apart from her brother, she loosened her grip on his arm almost dropping it before she stepped forward and leaned into him, bringing her arms around his waist and the tears that had started to dry up wanted to begin again as she turned her face into his chest.
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Post by octavius berringer on Jul 7, 2010 22:53:54 GMT -8
- - He almost rolled his eyes, this was a little more like the bri he’d come to know, the one that liked to fight her own battles, that didn’t want to inconvenience people or get them into trouble on her behalf, who took a while to trust people enough to let them in. her finally telling him about what had happened between her and her step father had felt like a big step in that direction, in trusting him, letting him in, and this, tonight, was further proof that maybe she felt closer to him than she ever let on. Not that you could blame him for being iffy about where they really stood, there wasn’t really a clear cut category that they fell under, unless dating but not actually dating counted as one, because that was pretty much what it was, there was probably legit couples who didn’t spend as much time kissing as they did, it was the kind of relationship he might have liked say.. a year ago, make out sessions without all the worry of things getting serious, or the hassle of remembering anniversaries, right now though, it was just starting to get frustrating, he wasn’t even sure anymore why he kept stalling on just doing the logical thing and asking her out, but he didn’t really know how to do the boyfriend thing, what if he messed it up? The way she talked about her ex was proof enough that she didn’t forgive easily, and he kind of hated the idea of ending up like that, another guy she got pissed off just thinking about. He was barely listening to her now, his mind, now that it had time to move past the initial surprise, was able to reach a new level of angry, like, he was this close to just putting a fist through a wall, not that it would be the first time, fights with his mom had always tended to finish that way, with remodeled furniture, which he usually got more in trouble over than whatever she’d been yelling at him for in the first place. Preoccupied, he didn’t even register her behind him until she reached for his arm and pulled him to a stop, glancing back at her impatiently, he froze, the look on her face right at that moment, coupled with her words, and all his anger evaporated, leaving nothing but the need to just comfort her, to make everything better, obviously this wasn’t something you could just… fix, or forget about just like that, but he would do what he could, even if it meant potentially giving up his only chance for revenge, because if cooper knew what was good for him, he’d fuck off back to new york while he could still do so with his face intact, because he’d have to be an idiot to stick around after pulling something like that, unless of course he was banking on her not telling anyone about it, not all that unlikely, given her track record with keeping things to herself, “ I’m not going anywhere..” he promised, stroking her hair lightly before kissing the top of her head, wrapping his arms around her he rubbed her back comfortingly, in the space between her shoulder blades, the way he did with ana whenever she was upset over something, which, being so high strung, had been fairly often. Hearing a car pull into the driveway he slipped out of her arms and took her hands, “ come on…” he murmured, leading her to his room, figuring the last thing she wanted to do right now was face other people, that and he didn’t really feel like explaining what she was doing here in the middle of the night like this.
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Post by bristol alexandar. on Jul 8, 2010 19:44:52 GMT -8
as much as she'd insisted to leah the other day another part of her knew leah had a point, she wasn't as entirely happy with the "in between crap" but there was too much of her that thought relationships were a waste of time to both saying anything. what they had was easy, simple, confusing at times, but fun. she liked when he sent her a good night text, or talking to him until she fell asleep but she liked not feeling obligate to make that call, she liked him not being irritated with her if she was too tired to answer the text. it was a confusing limbo but it was an easy one. the only downfall to it really was her dad's disapproval of it, mostly because her dad had never believed that she was still a virgin and he was pretty convinced that tav was her fuck buddy or something and she got plenty of reproving looks anytime she mentioned him or told her dad she had plans with him. titles didn't mean anything in the grand scheme of things really, it was what you felt. cooper being her boyfriend hadn't made her feel any stronger for him; she hadn't felt as strong for him as she felt for tav now, cooper being her boyfriend didn't mean she could completely trust him; she hadn't and it turns out it was well, tav she trusted. trusted him with maybe not the biggest, deepest, darkest secret in the world but with something that had hurt her, shaken her world a lot with the succeeding repercussions. it wasn't a story she liked to share, she hadn't even been able to talk it out with her mom because it still got to her so much, but she'd wanted him to know. tonight she wasn't going to tell leah or her brother about but she wanted him to know, she'd run to him and while a part of her felt completely pathetic for even letting cooper scare her enough that he'd made it under her bra, dumping her shit onto to tav and not just trying to figure it out on her own made her feel that much worse. as she'd reached for his arm and her slender fingers curled around it she could feel the pulse racing under his skin, if the anger that literally felt like it was rolling off of him wasn't enough indication already his pulse alone spoke to how pissed he was, regret flashed in her, until he turned to look at her, the barest traces of irritation directed at her for halting his progress until it kind of melted away and she felt a little of then tension leave him, she could smug about it later, now her lips turned up in a soft smile at his words as she leaned into him when he'd pulled his arms around her, she felt the adrenaline fading from her system faster now that she wasn't worried she was going to be alone or that he wasn't going to go off and do something stupid because of her, she wasn't as scared as she had been, now all she really felt was exhausted and uncomfortable as the fading adrenaline also made the soreness of her wrists more noticeable. she heard the car too and her stomach clenched a little, his aunt already disliked her she didn't think her being her in the middle of the night looking a hot mess was going to improve that any or if it was isolde it would get back to ezekiel - last thing she wanted. she followed him back to his room, running a hand through her hair as she stepped past him and he closed the door, she shrugged off her cardigan and put it over the back of his chair on top of one of jackets and another shirt before she turned to look at him, "thank you," she said looking up at him, figuring it was time to cut her apologies since she had already said it so many times she was sick of hearing it. "i know this is the last thing you want to be doing," she said, wiping away the last of her tears and trying to keep a blush from rising to her cheeks about her crying, it had been years since she'd legitimately cried and she'd always hated when she did. "you look tired," she said reaching up to touch his cheek, trying to shift the focus from her a little, "i woke you up, didn't i? i'm sorry." so much for not apologizing anymore.
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Post by octavius berringer on Jul 27, 2010 22:04:53 GMT -8
- - Pushing the door closed, he turned to glance at her, and then around the room, the anticipation of confronting cooper still lingering in his system, leaving him edgy, restless. glancing back at briar, and recalling the look on her face settled him a little, reminding him what was more important at the moment. he’d promised her he wouldn’t go anywhere, and he wouldn’t, but it was a hard thing to just switch off, when his mind kept coming back to cooper, and where he was, what he was doing, or really, whether or not he was already recovered enough to be trying the same thing on some other girl. It wasn’t like the fact that it was briar that made him angry, though of course, it did inspire a much stronger protective reflex, to the same level if it had been isolde, or his sister, but didn’t mean that aspect didn’t worry him, if he could get one up on briar, easily the strongest girl he knew, pretty much any other girl wouldn’t stand a chance, her words however, pulled him out of these thoughts momentarily and he shook his head, “it wouldn’t be my first preference …” he responded softly, glancing away and shrugging, “at least, not like this.. ” he added, carefully, staring mindlessly at a spot in the far wall, trying to push all thoughts about the prefacing events to her showing up here out of his mind, without a lot of success, he wasn’t used to this, wasn’t used to actually giving a damn, to putting someone elses needs above his own, he’d always been completely selfish towards everyone, family included, with the exception of anastacia, who he loved unbearably and would do anything for, literally, an attitude that leaked over occasionally to isolde, and more recently to briar, though he didn’t realize quite how much until a few moments ago. if anyone else had asked him to stay like that he could have easily ignored them, and probably would have, when he was that angry no one had a hope of reasoning with him, or getting him to calm down enough to rethink things, and yet, those simple words had manage to weaken his resolve completely, probably because, angry as he was, he was quick to realize how much it took for her to say it, to actually admit to any sort of reliance on another person, that, and she seemed to have this hold over him that no other girl had even come close to touching, that made him do crazy things he would have swore he was incapable of, like go this long without sex, and, more amazingly, be okay with it, or at least, not be going completely crazy in the process like he imagined he would, apparently he had self control, and patience, and common decency, it just took the right girl to bring them out. Her finger brushed his cheek, and he looked up, holding her gaze for a moment before looking down again, it was hard to control his anger when he could see all the ways that cooper had tried to hurt her right there on her face, her wrists, and in her expression. It also made him feel guilty, if he’d been there cooper wouldn’t have been able to do this… he should have been there. He looked up at her again, trying not to let any of that show on his face, “no.. im sorry..” he said finally, “I should have been there… but I wasn’t, and now..” his voice trailed off, the anger he felt this time completely self directed. Breathing out slowly, he shook his head, before moving away from her to sit on the bed.
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Post by bristol alexandar. on Jul 28, 2010 12:01:02 GMT -8
it was impossible to ignore the tension rolling off of him, she knew the feeling underneath the fear that wasn't quite flushed out of her system she had the same anger, yeah, she'd gotten him good in the nuts, her own knee hurt from it, but their was sicker part of her that wanted him to suffer more. not just for tonight but to make up for her failed assassination attempt the night she'd found out about him cheating on her, for all the hell he'd given her since they'd broken up for all the times he'd just mindfucked her. she chewed her lip a little as she watched him, ignoring the slight tenderness from when cooper's teeth had clamped down on it, she felt the guilt bubbling up in her. this was why she kept things to herself, why she stood through the lectures from her dad or brother or leah about trying to take on everything by herself because she didn't want to see this in her friends. there were her problems and more often then not she didn't need the help people tried to force on her. she didn't want to see them upset or angry, or watch them get in trouble like tav would've been in had he hauled off and gone after cooper. and sure a lot of it was just this natural streak of independence - which her dad more oft liked to label tenacity, pigheadedness and stubbornness - but most of it was the concern for her friends. they were her problems what business did she have dumping her shit onto them? he was upset now, pissed off and frustrated, annoyed some of that no doubt directed at her because she was making him stay here with her when he'd have much rather been kicking cooper's face in. he answered her, but it didn't take much longer for him to slip back into his thoughts and to make her feel a little worse, she couldn't have just had her little freak out at home. ezekiel wasn't home tonight she could've just gone there and when he woke up in the morning to find her in his kitchen she could've just said she had left the party early and didn't feel like walking all the way back to her house because kaye had abducted her, it was plausible, his house was closer to the part then hers. furrowing her brows a little she finally reached up to touch tav's face, even without the above average way her and her brother had with reading people she could see the array of emotions that he felt and quickly she thought she even caught guilt, but he turned his eyes away from hers again and she almost tiltled his face to make him look at her again but after a second his eyes were to hers and his words confirmed that she had seen a flash of guilt and it tore at her stomach. how could he blame himself for this? he pulled back from her and she frowned for a split second before she shook her head in disagreement, turning to him, "no," she said, walking towards him, "no, don't you dare, this is... in no way, at all, your fault..." she took his face into her hands as she spoke, staring him straight in the eyes, "this is all coop...." she worried her tender lip again, "and me..." she admitted, "i should've done something about him sooner, i mean i've know he's been... pushy and just off since we dated... since before, really. i never listened and... and there was kayla... and just so much. i could've prevented this just last year with the library thing..." she frowned, feeling her tears wanting to come back, how much had being secretive really worked out for you now, briar? came a bitter internal voice. "this is not your fault..." she repeated again, smoothing a hand over his cheek and down to his neck and she leaned down and kissed him lightly on his lips, tilting her forehead to his for a moment before she moved herself into his lap, turning her face into his chest.
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Post by octavius berringer on Aug 30, 2010 5:22:44 GMT -8
- - he didn’t look up as she followed him across to the bed, instead kept his gaze down, resisting momentarily when she tried to tilt his face up, before surrendering and dragging his eyes up to meet hers, her words didn’t do much for the guilt that pulled through him, barely even touched it, now that he’d let that thought in it was hard to shake. He knew she was right, this wasn’t his fault, cooper getting trashed and forcing himself on her had nothing to do with him, he knew that, it didn’t stop all the what if’s from running through his mind, torturing him, if only he had gone, if only he’d been there with her, if only he hadn’t passed out on the couch watching tv. This wasn’t like him, wasn’t like him at all, he wasn’t the kind who blamed himself for things that weren’t his fault, or even things that were, he’d never really had much of a conscience, or if he did, he’d gotten quite apt in ignoring it. Anger flared in him again when she mentioned cooper, but cooled quickly at the glassy look in her eyes, like she was about to cry again, and it hit him, how fucking selfish was he being right now? she wasn’t supposed to be the one doing the comforting in the situation, pulling a labored smile across his lips he pushed those thoughts aside, meeting her kiss, which was entirely too brief, but helped in tuning out the other emotions churning in the back of his mind. He wrapped his arms around her as she shifted into his lap, glad that he’d gotten as far as showering this afternoon and that he’d didn’t still smell like horse, which, while never seeming to bother him had always made his mom, and almost every other girl’s nose wrinkle.
- -neither of them had said anything for a few minutes, so the sound of his aunts voice, loud even from two rooms away, made him jump. Rolling his eyes he sighed, knowing exactly why she was summoning him, she’d obviously seen the mess that he’d left in the lounge room. Yawning, he offered bri an apologetic look, waiting for her to stand before he jumped up himself, “I’ll be back in a sec, my closet is there if you want something more comfortable to sleep in.. ” he paused, realizing she’d never actually said anything about staying, he’d kind of just assumed that part, “…that is… if you want to stay … you don’t have to, or anything.. just ..yeah…” his voice trailed off, and he shook his head, ducking out the door and out to the lounge room before his aunt could get annoyed enough to come up to his room to yell at him instead, “I know, I know, im sorry.. I just went to my room for a second, I was coming back to clean it up. Honest.” he cut in, before she could say anything, gathering up the empty bottles and packets off the table, while she watched on, no doubt waiting for something else to yell at him about, which by no exaggeration, seemed like her favorite thing to do lately. Dumping the stuff into the bin in the kitchen he grabbed a cloth and carried it back, wiping down the table, and even rearranging the pillows on the couch he’s been lying on to just the way she liked them, satisfied there was no possibility she could get upset at him again tonight he ducked back to the kitchen to return the cloth, but paused, wondering whether he should take something back for her, in his experience, things loaded with sugar or chocolate was usually the go to comfort food for most teenage girls when they were upset, not that that really narrowed down the decision by much, he finally settled on hot chocolate, since it combined both chocolate and sugar, and would have the added affect of warming her up, he’d even dug around in the pantry for some marshmallows, and mug in one hand, the marshmallows in the other, he ducked quickly back to his room, “I got this for you…” he said softly, as he came through the door, only to find her curled up on the bed, asleep, chuckling lightly he shook his head, putting the stuff down on the side table, pulling the covers over her, before slipping out of his jeans and crawling into be beside her.
this is tagged to briarrr/ lizily & it is done , and i've got about seven hundred things to say to you. you can find the threads i'm rocking right coming . i've got to give a shout to supermuse for the beasty template, day26 for lyrics . oh! i can't forget i have to say ; their cute <3 hope its alright what i did there?
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Post by bristol alexandar. on Aug 30, 2010 21:52:02 GMT -8
there was a good chance that this story got no further then tav, even though she finally comprehended leah's worries about cooper being dangerous it wasn't likely she was going to be telling blaine, leah or her dad what happened. the fact she'd even told tav, that was pretty big, that was how scared she was, and she realized it more as her adrenaline drained and the exhaustion set in, and especially as she looked down into tav's eyes, seeing the guilt that was there, the unneeded guilt. this shouldn't have happened - she knew that. she knew that she could've stopped this, and even so she was pretty sure she'd still keep her cooper drama to herself. why? who the fuck knows, because she was an idiot, because she had some vain hopes that maybe he'd back the fuck off now. he was just back for the summer right? maybe if he wasn't she'd finally have to do something about it, but until then the universe should have been satisfied she'd told one person. a small smile pulled over her lips as he finally drew a weak one up for her, trying to ignore her own guilt that bubbled up in her stomach for making things like this. it was kind of easy to ignore as her lips brushed his, his kisses always seemed to be an easy and welcome distraction. moving into his lap with his arms pulling around her she could really feel the drain, the exhaustion heavy on her and turning her face into his chest with her eyes drifting close she was pretty sure she probably could've fallen asleep in his arms. in fact she was pretty close when his aunt's voice broke the silence, she felt him jerk beneath her and she gave a light chuckle, pulling her face from his chest, "the slave driver beckons," she teased tilting her lips to his jaw before she got out of his lap, as much as she'd like to encourage him to ignore his aunt that would likely bring her their way and just get him in more trouble then he needed to be in with the woman. she smiled a little as he talked about his closet, and then a little more as he stumbled over his words, "i can't promise you'll actually get it back..." she said with a light laugh as he headed out the door, it wouldn't be the first shirt she'd taken of his, she was of the firm opinion that there wasn't anything more comfortable then a plain old baggy t shirt to wear to bed, especially when it belonged to your boyfriend or whatever tav was to her that her mind was too tired to try a find a name for just right now. she put the bare minimum in picking a shirt, a charcoal coloured one that she remembered had been soft and fit him a little looser then most. after tossing her shirt and tattered shorts over on the chair she'd lain her cardigan across, she pulled his shirt on over her head, pulling her hair over the collar and sat on the bed cross-legged for a moment, irritated she hadn't taken the second to find her phone or clutch again when she'd left the party, but finding that she was too tired to put any more worry into it. yawning, she laid back, turning over on her side and let her eyes drift close, she'd just sleep a little while she waited for him to come back. she didn't know how much longer after that she thought she felt the sheets come over her bare legs. the bed shifted next to her, bringing her out of the already heavy sleep enough to pull herself closer to him and use his chest as her pillow.
a little bit of confusion trailed over briar's face and the brunette drew her eyebrows together, how had she found herself wrapped around tav? why was she in one of his t shirts and only her underwear? pulling her arm from around him she sat up, ignoring the slight pain in her back, staring down at him for a moment before she drew her gaze around the room, trying to figure out what exactly was going on here. last night was kind of fuzzy as in there wasn't much she remembered between being thrown over a football players shoulder at the bottom of her stairs and then being here and now waking up. which was a little bit more then inconvenient. waking up to a half naked tav wasn't unenjoyable but coupled with her own not as clothed state and a mostly missing evening, it made her stomach twist a little. she looked back down at tav, nudging him in the side tentatively, before she gave a more purposeful nudge, "hey... wake up.. please." she gave a little sigh, of course, he slept like the dead. after a moment more she finally felt him shift next to her, his eyes finally coming open, "what happened last night?" god, she sounded like a cliché.
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this post is dedicated to b's lovaaa a.k.a the awesometastic afffy and it's complete . pretty much i've got about enough things to say to you, you can find the threads i'm rocking right here. i've got to give a shout out to kaye for inspiring this template. those lyrics up there belong to sia "breath me" but i'm currently jamming to jennifer's body. oh! and i can't forget to say; they are.<33 and yeah, it was fiine. :) [/justify][/color]
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Post by octavius berringer on Aug 31, 2010 5:25:44 GMT -8
- - “ fucking alarm..” he grumbled, at five thirty, when it finally managed to drag him out of the deep sleep he’d fallen into, wishing he’d had the presence of mind to adjust it last night, but he’d been exhausted, emotionally and well as physically when he finally gotten to bed that he hadn’t really thought about the fact that he was supposed to get up to train this morning, rubbing his face, he glanced down at briar, who was sleeping soundly and using him as a pillow, and wondered how, with her arm curled around his waist, he could get up without waking her, not that he wanted to, in fact that was the last thing he wanted to do right now, one morning wasn’t going to be the end of the world, was it? of course not, but he battled enough with the early mornings, as it was, he’d only just got back into the routine of it, in the end though, his laziness won out, and pulling the covers up, he settled back to sleep. it felt like literally minutes after that she was nudging him awake, though in reality, it was couple of hours, he didn’t move at first, hoping maybe she’d let him go back to sleep, but she nudged him again, harder this time, a slight edge in her request for him to wake up, and he knew that wasn’t going to happen, “ ..and good morning to you too” he murmured, smiling sleepily up at her, he might have been only half awake still, but it didn’t take him very long to realize what she was worried about, and really, it wasn’t such an unreasonable concern, waking up in his bed, without her pants, and hazy about the night before, he couldn’t really blame her for coming to that conclusion, it wasn’t exactly the most innocent of scenarios, and nor was he, waking up to a girl in his bed, albeit a girl with more clothes on than usual, was something he was certainly familiar with, though it was a habit he’d fallen out of more recently, or really, since meeting briar, he couldn’t really say that it had been conscious decision either, it had just kind of happened naturally, he’d just started spending more time with her, which of course, meant less time around other girls, though even when he was around other girls he mind inevitably came back to her, and he’d end up calling, or texting, or something, which had been weird for him, in the beginning it had even scared him a little, not enough to stop hanging out with her or anything, but enough to check him, make him wary, which was probably half the reason that, a year later, they were still in this strange relationship limbo, she was more than a friend, but not his girlfriend, a distinction that both complicated and simplified things all in one. “ you mean you don’t remember?” he asked, reaching across to run a hand up her thigh, a devilish glimmer in his eyes, “I have to say… im a little insulted.. ” he added, trying not laugh at her expression, too amused to be in any way offended by how low key horrified she looked at the thought of sleeping with him, yawning, he pushed himself up a little, “you just stayed the night, that’s it. ” he assured her, not wanting to delve too far into the specifics right now, instead, turning her face towards his so he could kiss her lightly on the lips, still, she didn’t look completely convinced, and he grinned, “if we’d done anything your clothes would on be all over the floor, not on you, and certainly not sitting that neatly on the chair” he pointed out, smirking a little, and running a hand though his hair, “ now that that’s settled… ” he added, yawning and sinking back down onto the pillows, “ can we go back to sleep?”
this is tagged to briarrr/ lizily & it is done , and i've got about six hundred things to say to you. you can find the threads i'm rocking right here . i've got to give a shout to supermuse for the beasty template, day26 for lyrics . oh! i can't forget i have to say ; i had tav muse.
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Post by bristol alexandar. on Sept 1, 2010 21:40:50 GMT -8
this didn't happen to her. in fact, waking up half naked snuggled into some guys side n a room that wasn't her own had never happened to her. it wasn't exactly the end of the world now, waking up next to tav was far from unwelcome, nor was losing her virginity to him, remembering that it had happened would have been nice though, preferable and very, very welcome. maybe having sex with him shouldn't have been her first conclusion but what else could it have been, right? you didn't end up in bed with a guy you'd been stuck in a weird in-between with for about a year one morning and not wonder if something had happened especially when your mind wasn't too keen on drawing up the memory of the night before and you found yourself in nothing more then a t shirt and your underwear. she was surprised but also not surprised when he tossed out his question. leah had said more then once that she was even more shocked the briar was still a virgin considering the way her and tav acted, something that had increased over the past few months. in all honesty briar was a little surprised sometimes too, things had a real opportunity to get out of hand pretty quickly between them. as she looked down at him she tried to mask her shock and a little bit of the disappointment, if she were going to finally have sex with him, especially it being her first time it would've been pretty fantastic to actually remember it. then glint she'd caught in his eyes should've tipped her off that maybe he was fucking with her head, but considering the subject at hand, the look wasn't entirely out of place. still she felt more then a little relief at his assurances, but she barely returned the kiss he gave her, a little irritated he'd freaked her out by jokingly confirming her fears and a little because she was still stuck in the shock of thinking she had lost her virginity to him and now couldn't remember it, and partly not believing that his words now. she looked over her shoulder to the desk chair where the outfit she remembered showing up in was folded on the chair. turning back to him she glared a little "you are such a jerk." she said as she reached out and hit him in the chest, "why do i like you again?" she tried to hold back a smile at the question shaking her head, "seriously, you suck." she told him, sounding a little less serious, a small smile even tugging at her lips until her hand caught her gaze and the darkness that showed on her wrists had nothing to do with the two tattoo's she'd gotten back in new york. her eyebrows furrowed a little and then it really came back as she looked over the bruises, "oh." she said softly, frowning a little, "i was hoping that had been a dream.. or nightmare, whatever." she said shaking her head and pulling her eyes back up from her wrists and back to him, before she laid back down snuggling back into his side trying to ignore how weird it felt thinking about what happened with cooper, "thank you again, for letting me stay and just being there, you didn't have to." she told him before she looked up at him, resting her chin on his chest, "it meant a lot." she said giving him a kiss before she pulled away after a moment, "you're still a total jerk for freaking me out like that just now." she said with a small laugh before she kissed him again, a little harder this time,
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this post is dedicated to b's lovaaa a.k.a the awesometastic afffy and it's complete . pretty much i've got about enough things to say to you, you can find the threads i'm rocking right here. i've got to give a shout out to kaye for inspiring this template. those lyrics up there belong to sia "breath me" but i'm currently jamming to jennifer's body. oh! and i can't forget to say; failsauce. [/justify][/color]
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Post by octavius berringer on Oct 9, 2010 4:31:34 GMT -8
- - all things considered, the most surprising thing part of the situation really was that it hadn’t come around sooner. He’d never had much trouble talking a girl out of her clothes and into bed, which had been handy, because he’d never been all that patient, and really, why bother waiting around for one girl when another looked like she was about ready to tear his clothes off? It was only logical. that and those ones tended to be less clingy too, taking it for what it was, a bit of fun, and nothing more, in fact more than once he’d woken up to an empty bed, which he couldn’t honestly say had ever bothered him, at least it saved him the trouble of trying to remember her name, right? And then he’d met briar and everything had literally been turned upside down on him, he wasn’t used to taking things slow, or wanting to, for that matter, and yet it was almost always him that hesitated, that cut things off before they got too intense, instead seeing just how far he could get like he normally would, not that there wasn’t times where that happened too, at the end of the day, he was still a guy, governed primarily by his hormones, though he was definitely getting better at controlling himself, really, the very fact that he hadn’t attempted to get her out of those clothes at least once in the five minutes they’d been awake was quite an achievement. He stifled a laugh at her glare, “ hey.. ” he objected half heartedly, unsurprised at the hit, but thoroughly amused that it hadn’t been half as hard as he knew she was capable of. At her question he smiled widely, glancing down at himself and then up her at her he smirked, “ isn’t it obvious? ” he teased, raising a brow, laughing at her next words, about to respond with something sarcastic, until he caught the frown that slipped over her face as she looked at her bruised wrists, and for a moment anger pulled through him, not nearly as strongly as it had last night, but it was still there, churning in the back of his mind, trying not to let any of that leak onto his face he watched her, carefully assessing her reaction, “ me too..” was all he could manage in response to her words, even then, there was a slight edge there, to her words he smiled, “ yeah, you kind of owe me now…” he teased, about to make some suggestions on how she could possibly repay him when she leaned over to kiss him, which he certainly wasn’t complain about. He frowned slightly when she pulled back, but that was soon replaced by a smirk at her words, he didn’t have time to respond before she was kissing him again, which was all the invitation he needed to run a hand up the inside of her thigh, not missing the way her heart picked up speed, before in one swift movement he pulled her into his lap, the surprise of which broke the kiss, “ we can always make it worthwhile.. ” he murmured silkily, bringing her lips back to his, it was too easy to slip back into his old ways with her kissing him like this, too easy to forget about last night, and the events that had led to them being here, together, in his bed. In fact, things were getting a little dangerous there for a minute or two, until the door swung open, which briar noticed before he did and pulled back, confused he looked up at her for a moment, before following her gaze across to the doorway where his younger cousin was standing, “ dude, what did I tell you about knocking…” he said, glancing briefly back at briar who was blushing and pulling her shirt down as far as it would allow, and back to landon, “oh, right .. yeah, sorry.. I’ll just talk to you.. later?’” he said, backing out the door and shutting it behind him before he had time to answer, turning back to bri he smirked, “ at least it wasn’t my aunt?”
this is tagged to briarrr/ lizily & it is done , and i've got about seven hundred things to say to you. you can find the threads i'm rocking right here . i've got to give a shout to supermuse for the beasty template, day26 for lyrics . oh! i can't forget i have to say ; idk why, but this took me like a ridiculous amount of time to write today, mental blocks ftl -_-
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Post by bristol alexandar. on Oct 10, 2010 0:26:27 GMT -8
"that was just... beyond cruel." she said letting a pout tilt her voice, though more relieved and genuinely amused to actually find herself irritated with him, it would've been dumb for her to have anyways, in his place would she not have done the same thing? oh hell yeah. a smirk pulled at her lips, "oh yes, i remember," she began with a light chuckle, "all that modesty..." a teasing note threaded through her words, pulling a smile to her lips, one that faded almost completely away when her mind played back the highlights of the night before. however last night was the last thing she wanted on the forefront of her mind, even with the few sore spots on her body trying to be noticed, it was easy to block out, she'd never had the highest tolerance for pain but being an eternal klutz she'd certainly gained plenty of practice ignoring pain. "oh, i do?" she asked, drawing a brow up before she'd lightly kissed him, grinning a little on the small pout she saw when she pulled back, but not wasting too much time to return her lips to his. blaine was right, if her and tav pushed the limits when they were out and about it definitely got worse when they were alone with a pretty solid assurance they weren't going to be bothered like by her brother who felt the need to check on them like they were a couple of little kids who were going to choke on the small parts of their toys. she smiled against his lips as his hand moved easily up the inside of her thigh even as her heart gave a more then noticeable pick up in pace, she felt a blush try to spill over her cheeks which she managed to keep away even as he easily shifted her into his lap, which actually brought a giggle from her, which probably just should have horrified her but straddling him it was kind of the last thing she was worried about. a grin tugged at her lips, but before she could scrounge up a weak protest his lips had captured hers again and it understandably erased her thoughts, like they always did, one that always, always pushed so heavily on her substandard self-control. despite everything that had gone on the night before, she felt like maybe this time it was going to win, that even he who more often then you'd have expected pulled back when things got too dangerous wasn't going to be able to pull back from it this time. which considering that for once he wasn't the only that was half naked it wasn't that surprising that things could get completely out of hand. as much as it was the last thing she wanted to do she finally pulled back, not from the lack of oxygen but from the sound of his door, she felt her stomach drop a little before her eyes landed on ise's little brother, a bright raspberry blush spilling over her cheeks as she pulled at the hem of her shirt and dropping her gaze from his almost slack jawed stare, more then thankful that it hadn't been his aunt considering the animosity that hung between the three of them, or isolde which would have been just as embarrassing. as the door shut she let her gaze fall on tav and actually allowed a laugh, "you've got quite a conversation coming up on your heels," she teased before she shook her head, "wow, that's just... awkward and completely embarrassing." it's not like she had to run into the kid all that much but that didn't make having him walk in on them like that all that much better. "that's probably a sign, i should actually leave," she said looking down at him a little disappointment trailing through her, "and all things considered? i don't think this is the right time for this to happen anyways..." even so she brought him into another kiss, pulling back after a moment, "but we're picking this back up again. and soon." she said, a suggestive smile playing over her lips.
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this post is dedicated to b's lovaaa a.k.a the awesometastic afffy and it's complete . pretty much i've got about enough things to say to you, you can find the threads i'm rocking right here. i've got to give a shout out to kaye for inspiring this template. those lyrics up there belong to sia "breath me" but i'm currently jamming to who owns my heart. oh! and i can't forget to say; so much love for these guysss. [/justify][/color]
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